“He served in Iraq. Three years.” The pudgy man pointed to his friend next to him, and the friend nodded over his beer.

“Cheers,” she said, and clinked bottles with him. A subtle motion, completely ineffectual.

The pudgy man continued talking to her, as if the veteran wasn’t there. “He has…what do you call it? PTD?”


“Yeah, that’s it. So we take him out once in awhile, get him drunk. Try to help take his mind off it.”

She looked at the veteran and he smiled. “You could try something else,” she said to the pudgy man. “For your friend.”

He might have heard this before, and raised his eyebrows. “Like talk to him?”


“He doesn’t talk.”

She looked back to the veteran and noticed he was popping his jaw side to side, over and over. Probably coke, or maybe ecstasy.

“I wouldn’t mind helping other vets,” he said. “I’d like to get involved in something like that. If there was a program. But I don’t want to talk about me.”

“I suppose helping other vets could help you as well.”

He shrugged. “Lots of things happen in three years. I lived it. I don’t want to talk about it. I’d rather…” He made a motion with his hands of pushing down from his chest to his stomach. “I just can’t think about it anymore. I’m here. I don’t want to think about there.”

“But maybe if you talked about it, it would leave you. At least a little. Bit by bit would leave you.”

She knew she was naïve, and probably sounded ridiculous. That the problem was too big for a conversation with a stranger over a beer. But her only other choice was to not say anything, and she couldn’t do that.

His chin rested on his chest for a moment, then he wiped at his eye with his thumb. His jaw popped.

He nodded at her beer. “You alright? I’m gonna get another.”

When he left with his friend, another man approached. “That guy’s a druggie,” he said. “I saw him here last week all coked up. Watch out.”

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6 responses to “Ryan”

  1. Katie Null Avatar
    Katie Null

    Well done.

  2. The Passionate Moderate Avatar

    Tough stuff. So sad that our veterans are often left to deal with these emotions alone.

    1. True STORIES. Avatar

      Yes – I think there’s still too much stigma with seeking help. But from what I’ve read, it’s changing for the better. Slowly, but changing.

  3. LJH Avatar

    I loved this. My fiance is an Iraq War vet and was diagnosed with PTSD. After years of struggling with self-medication, he finally got professional help. It’s there…vets just need to want it. Best choice he ever made, for himself and for everyone around him.

    1. True STORIES. Avatar

      I am so glad to hear that. It was a strong and courageous choice, too. Thanks for reading.

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